Dear father the day I took the decision to part with you was the worst yet. There are times I regret having made this decision. Believe me. I wish you could have given me a chance to make amends… My heart is heavy and filled with sorrow of the though of having created such a bad last memory. What really breaks my heart is the thought of your likely passing without us having reconciled…
I really miss you still I would lie, if I even tried to say or pretend otherwise. Will there ever come a time when I can be confident you’ll no longer ignore me… I want that so badly it hurts, yet I still doubt that the time isn’t quite right.
My heart breaks from the inside while I smile and laugh as a disguise.